Take off the mask…

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Depression: “feelings of severe despondency and dejection.”

I was depressed, and I didn’t even know it.

I never liked the word “depressed.”

I said I was at peace, but I was actually numb –

The hurt was so grave I didn’t know what else to do but to mask it with what I called peace, yet it was numbness.

Numb to the reality that you can be so deeply hurt by the one you love the most

Numb to the reality that what your dreams for someone’s life was never meant to be manifested. Only the dreams that are destined in their life but not by our own doing

Numb to the reality that no matter how many times someone tells you how great of a person you are, you just can’t seem to accept that to be true since your life at that moment doesn’t align with the strength they see in you.

Numb to the reality that things will be better, while your body and mind are still reeling from the physical and emotional pain that at times seemed unbearable.

My first point of healing and recovering was recognizing that I was depressed.  A depression that turned into despair, deep, deep sorrow and numbness.

My first point of healing was becoming still enough to feel the sorrow that had swept my heart.

My first point of healing was accepting the help that would allow me to begin to peel back my disappointment.

My first point of healing had a community that held me up when all I wanted to do was crawl up in a ball and go away.

My first point of healing was saying I need help!

My first point of healing was prayer.  Praying with complete abandonment, screaming to the top of my lungs, and laying on the ground in a fetal position.

My first point of healing was rising up from the ashes and saying…it’s okay.  I’m okay.

Don’t stay depressed, there is a long hallway out, keep moving forward.  Along the way, you will find your“first points.”  Allow those “first points” to help you and begin your healing.


We are created to live a life of light and joy through life experiences can come in as a way of darkness and despair.  Don’t allow shame to cloud your judgment.  Seek help.  Talk about.   Take off the mask.

‘Til Tuesday

6 responses to “Take off the mask…”

  1. norosario Avatar

    Great! Thank you.

  2. Shelli Mosley Avatar
    Shelli Mosley

    This post really touched me… I’ve been in that dark space before and I also didn’t know it until I started to see the light again, thank you for being open and transparent

  3. NInalou Risolio Avatar
    NInalou Risolio

    Thank you for this and last weeks words! Like you say I had to pray and cry out to God and He sent you with the exact words that I needed to hear that kept me from doing myself in. I don;t understand whats happening but I do know that no matter how low life takes us, our Lord Jesus loves us so much that He will make a way out of no way. I am so grateful that you share with us because the enemy always makes me feel I;m the only one that feels like I feel, yet with Jesus we are never alone or forsaken!!! I love you sister in Christ, pray super natural strength, wisdom and all you need in your life. In Jesus name, Amen.

    1. SOWE Avatar

      Thank you for always sharing suc great insight.

  4. NInalou Risolio Avatar
    NInalou Risolio

    Wanted to share a few songs that have blessed me, and thought they might do the same for you.
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZiPySgn84W8 – My Shelter!
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SzZZb6RbLJs – This song I’ve let get so into my spirit that it’s like the moment stuff starts hitting me, I start singing this even if it’s only playing in my mind.
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r5L6QlAH3L4 – My source has no Rival.

    1. SOWE Avatar

      Thank you!

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