What does waiting feel like to you? We wait in lines We wait in cars We wait in trains, buses, street corners We wait on decisions We wait on the news We wait on results We wait for breakfast, lunch, and dinner We wait for plans to be made Every moment of our day we … More Are you on pause?
It’s been a while since I last blogged. I survived quarantine. I published a book. I am surviving trauma. I am barely coming up for air and slowly re-engaging into society. I am observing things differently. I am noticing the little things. Acknowledging the details of every day. I catch myself staring out of my … More In a dark closet…
This was the year of weddings! We received six wedding invitations of which we were only able to attend three. It seemed that each time I opened my mailbox, there was another engagement, save the date and wedding invite. We take our attendance at weddings very seriously. Someone very wise once said, when you commit … More Six Weddings…
So, here I was feeling really good about myself. Walking with a pep in my step and singing along with the radio in the car. I was HAPPY! It had been a summer of several health challenges, in which at this point, I was overcoming, and I had just completed my third semester of law … More Women can be….well… read on…
Time to pause Time to reflect Time to read more Time to sleep more Time to slow down Time to sit still Time to look up and give thanks Take time to live more, laugh more, and show up! Be kind to yourself Be good to others ‘Til August -Annette Ortiz Mata
There I was sitting across from my son getting ready to be as vulnerable as possible, not truly knowing how he would receive my heart. And so, I leaped! I was nervous, but I needed him to know of my inner sorrow so that I could heal our brokenness. And then it happened…healing and wholeness. We … More Hold him…
Paul was barely a few days old. Due to being a premie, he was not allowed to be out of the NICU for very long, and I wanted Rob to meet and hold his baby brother. As I gently placed Paul in Rob’s arms, I asked him, “how do you feel?” and immediately he said, “my … More My heart grew twice…
Taking a moment to gather my thoughts. You do the same. ’Til Tuesday
Committing to marriage and committing to each other is an act of selflessness. … More Twenty-Five years and counting!
Just be… In this generation of striving and being and creating, we’ve lost the art of just being. Being ourselves, not a copy of someone else. We have fallen into the vicious trap of trying to be, act, look, talk, and walk like someone else. When I was younger, I was a victim of that … More Just be…yourself!
If you follow my blog, you know that I am a list maker. I make a list for the day, the week, the month, the year. I go over it each day and check off my daily, monthly, and if I’m so lucky my yearly accomplishments. I challenge you to create a list of goals. … More Have you made your list? Have you checked it twice?
Are you content? Do you feel – satisfied, pleased, gratified, fulfilled, happy, cheerful, glad; unworried, untroubled, at ease, at peace, tranquil, serene? So you accomplish all your goals. You check all your to-dos and sit back say..and then what? Were you satisfied? Did it meet all your expectations? Did you get out of it all … More “If only…”
Depression: “feelings of severe despondency and dejection.” I was depressed, and I didn’t even know it. I never liked the word “depressed.” I said I was at peace, but I was actually numb – The hurt was so grave I didn’t know what else to do but to mask it with what I called peace, … More Take off the mask…
We met 25 years ago. I was broken, and he was whole. We married and built a life together that was nothing but unconventional. Through it all he is consistent. His character is consistent His temper is consistent His commitment to our family is consistent When we met, I lived in New York City, … More The Measure of a Man
As a child, I have always loved Wonder Woman. I have countless images dressed like her! There was no one like Lynda Carter and her twirl and gold cuffs. Now as we walk into this new generation of Wonder Woman -I have come to understand and believe that … We all have a little bit … More Wonder Woman….
Burden – (1) a load, especially a heavy one. (Thesaurus) encumbrance, strain, care, problem, worry, difficulty, trouble, millstone; responsibility, charge, duty, obligation, liability. During a conversation I was having with my soul friend, I remember telling her … “We must speak life and not death into our husbands, into our circumstances, it’s our burden the “Burden … More The “Burden of Eve”
I said yes. I moved across the country, and I gave up my identity. I became a wife, his partner. I became the homemaker, housekeeper (well not for long), I became the accountant and soon after I became the mother of his children. During the past 24 years, I juggled my identity, our lives, the … More Saying I do…..
How do I inspire when it’s me that needs to BE inspired. It’s hard to write when your life is experiencing chaos and turmoil. It’s hard to write when all you want to do is lay in bed and sleep until your trial is over. It’s hard to write when what you want to say … More Just write…
You are broken, and I can’t fix you You are broken, and I will not hide it You are broken, and I must release you You are broken, and I will always love you You are broken and I accept it You are broken, and I will wait You are broken, and I have faith The … More Love…it sometimes hurts.
The call came in. My father had a heart attack and is intensive care. I sit still and wait. I sit still and process what is before me. Do I love or do I walk away Do I choose to remember how he protected me or do I remember how he treated my mom? Do … More Do I call?