Tag: fear
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Now what…
Here it is – 16 months, of school, completed and now what? I found myself experiencing a real sense of anxiety. I normally am not one to get anxious. I’m pretty laid back about things. I wait and pray and trust. Yet I found myself panicking and fretting and worrying about…
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I needed it to be a cold blue…
I sat and cried. I thought I was okay, but I wasn’t. The night before, I was taking my evening stroll and lectured my husband, that if anything should come back, that’s questionable, I didn’t want anyone to overact. That if my tests were to prove something malignant, I wanted…
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Take off the mask…
Depression: “feelings of severe despondency and dejection.” I was depressed, and I didn’t even know it. I never liked the word “depressed.” I said I was at peace, but I was actually numb – The hurt was so grave I didn’t know what else to do but to mask it…
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CANCER – It’s more than the C word…
The first time I heard the word cancer I was a young child. I didn’t quite understand it, but I knew that it was a deadly disease and it brought a lot of pain to our family. It wouldn’t be the last time I would hear it… As life…
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Walking on Water…
How many times have you felt you are walking on water? How many times have you felt, it will take a miracle? How many times have you said this is an impossibility? I can honestly say I have said it more than a hundred times. I have had to walk…
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The Waiting Room… (Part 1)
It was like any other 10-month-old check up. We walked in, greeted all the wonderful staff and were escorted to our exam room. We stripped Rob, the nurses weighed him, check his growth, and conducted his usual blood tests. Nothing unusual, nothing exciting, but as new parents, everything was fascinating.…