He said, “we have a beautiful life….” I didn’t understand....until I did. All I knew was my heart was broken; how can that be called a beautiful life. I let the words settle until the realization of what he was saying became greater than my simple understanding. Our life is beautiful- Every test  Every trial... Continue Reading →

Shards…

I often wondered how many of us are walking around with shards in our hearts that we simply can’t talk about because it just hurts too much. I understand that pain. I am learning to soften the scars left behind by the shards that ripped through my heart. I am processing the pain I have... Continue Reading →

I’m still brown.

I have come to realize that even if I met all of the markers of success, i.e., education, wealth,  and housing. I am still brown. I was raised in The Bronx, NY. Specifically, the Soundview Housing Projects. My mom was a dedicated homemaker, and my father a blue-collar worker.  I attended public schools. As an... Continue Reading →

Living your life…

I thought I knew what I truly wanted, but when I got it I realized I didn’t want it at all. I was in love with the illusion of what it could be and not the reality of what it truly was. Have you found yourself yearning, fantasizing, idealizing a life, a job, a relationship,... Continue Reading →

It is time to ….pivot!

This global quarantine has exposed the best and worst of us. Who will survive? Who will thrive? I spent the first three months submitted to focused stillness- then BAM! The physical/social distancing kicked in...and I struggled!! You see, the first three months were my decisions, my choices, my focus.  When the self - distancing was... Continue Reading →

A Seat at my table…

During this physical distancing time, I have re-organized my closets, my dresser, the kitchen cabinets, my office desk, and the bookshelves. I have sorted in stacks of what I will keep, donate, and throw away. So it occurred to me, what in my relationships do I need to re-organize? How am I relating to the... Continue Reading →

I thought I was done…

Three years and over 100  blog posts, I thought I had written enough, said enough, encouraged enough, brought enough insight, and it was time to wrap my blog in a beautiful, pretty bow. I didn't believe that my weekly blogging had many legs left, and this was going to be my last post. BUT GOD!... Continue Reading →

Lessons during Quarantine…

Letting go requires self-control. Read that again...slowly. By definition, self-control requires -restraint exercised over one's own impulses, emotions, or desires. When we let something go, when we release control of all things, self-control must take front and center.  In our human nature, when we let things go, we panic, fear sets in, and we immediately... Continue Reading →

You are safe…

The other day I read the funniest tweet ever... “been quarantined with my wife for four weeks now. At this point, I have more risk of getting killed by her than by a crummy virus."  I laughed out loud and shared it with my friends and especially my husband. I couldn’t help but think how... Continue Reading →

A few questions…

Who will we be when all of this is said and done? An interesting season in our world.  Forcing us to look at each other and deal with our families, our finances, and our environment. Requiring us to pay attention to the details. I have pondered several questions and wanted to share them with you... Continue Reading →

Coincidence…I think not!

Coincidence - the occurrence of events that happen at the same time by accident but seem to have some connection. (Merriam-Webster) Have you ever thought and said to yourself, wow, that’s such a funny coincidence? Oh my goodness, how crazy is that? Or that can’t be possible? What are the chances? All comments that connect to what we believe... Continue Reading →

Now what…

Here it is -  16 months, of school, completed and now what? I found myself experiencing a real sense of anxiety. I normally am not one to get anxious.  I'm pretty laid back about things. I wait and pray and trust. Yet I found myself panicking and fretting and worrying about what is next?  What was... Continue Reading →

The price of silence…

It seemed so innocent. A post...I left a comment and then... BANG!!!   Just like that, I was entangled in a thread that left my head spinning.  I offered what I thought was an educated opposing comment to something a relative posted. What I didn't know at that moment, that they were not inviting opposing... Continue Reading →

What I know for sure…

You have my heart completely! Faith... This past week I underwent several medical tests. I’ll spare you the gory details, but it places things into perspective -that’s for sure! As I recovered and sat quietly in my bedroom. I took that the time to reflect on things I know to be true, and I wanted... Continue Reading →

Women can be….well… read on…

So, here I was feeling really good about myself.  Walking with a pep in my step and singing along with the radio in the car. I was HAPPY! It had been a summer of several health challenges, in which at this point, I was overcoming, and I had just completed my third semester of law... Continue Reading →

Brokenness walked into my house…

This summer, a few things occurred that stopped me dead in my tracks and forced me to face the reality that lives all around us. Her name is Sarah*. A phone call from our son asking if a friend could sleepover.  By sheer instinct, I knew the omission of the pronoun led me to the... Continue Reading →

My words…have traveled​!

On May 8, 2017, I posted my very first blog.  Little did I know that those words would travel the world.  My intention for the blog is to inspire, educate, and entertain.  Have I achieved that these past two years, I would hope so?  I desire to always leave the reader with a new perspective.... Continue Reading →

Pause

Time to pause Time to reflect Time to read more Time to sleep more Time to slow down Time to sit still Time to look up and give thanks Take time to live more, laugh more, and show up! Be kind to yourself Be good to others 'Til August -Annette Ortiz Mata  

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